Terrorism

Ohkay. Bombay attacks.

1. I lived in Bombay. For a year and a half. Went to school there. I have friends and family there. I know a girl that is 10 minutes away from the Taj.
2. Supposedly they targeted Westerners. Specifically British/American. My brother was born in London. I lived there too. I'm living in America. Have been for 6 years.

Conclusion: I'm scared to death. Not for myself specifically. Just a bit. But more for what this world is coming to.

Yes, I know there's been terrorism for a while. Hasn't hit me so hard till now.

A friend and I had a convo over this.

Ayesha: I M REALLLLLLYYYY SORRY
Anusha: ? Sorry for what?
Ayesha: for all this...i mean
Anusha: Why would you be sorry?
Ayesha: this is just
Anusha: It wasn't your fault.
Ayesha: yea...but still i mean..i can feel the grief..the sorrow

------Cut to another part of convo-------

Ayesha: i mean..if thier main target were british/ american
Anusha: Ya, that's kinda scary. The fact that there's so much hate and it's on race.
Ayesha: then y the innocent ppl were thiere to suffer
Anusha: *tilts head* Why were the ones who weren't either British or American the ones to suffer? Is that what you're asking?
Ayesha: yea..
Anusha: I don't think they were. They just got caught up. I mean, I do feel soo sorry for them. But, I think it would be scarier to know the hate is targeted at you. And going further on that, to be hated simply because of your citizenship.....One sec. If we are indian....but have American citizenship...does that mean....? Oh god.
Ayesha: i dont think its on citizenship. i really hope its not
Anusha: I know, but even if it's thru being from a certain country....I mean, it's the leaders that make the decisions...do you need to punish a whole country for the leaders' mistakes? Then of course you think about how normally it's the country that puts the leaders up there.....
Ayesha: yea...thats just..NOT FAIR
Anusha: But then again, life isn't fair. But why do people have to make it less fair?

Thoughts on this convo? In comments, please.

-----Continuation-----

Anyways. My thoughts on Terrorism.

It exists. And I want to smash it against the wall till it doesn't. But that isn't going to get rid of it. Perhaps because the essentials for terrorism are in all of us. Only some choose to act upon them.
They say the group claiming responsibility is the Deccan Mujahideen.
Some places say that one of the terrorists called the news, and said that the reason this was being done was religion.

My thoughts on that? Religion is a personal thing. And therefore it should not be forced upon others. It is not your job to go and enlighten people on the sayings of God or whatever. If God wants them to be enlightened, he can do it himself.

And gah. I don't think I can write anymore atm.

Deep thoughts come and go like the tide for me. And it's low tide.

Baibiez!

Lack

Lack, or the existence of it.

I got a giant lecture today. Once again, all true.

I'm fat. Yes, I'm gaining weight....
I don't exercise, enough. True.
Gah, I know I'm horrible. In so many ways.

Fine. I'll fix it.

I'll actually stop slacking off, and acting a lot dumber than I am.

Phase one: Face the fact that changes need to be made.

Completed.

Phase Two: Make changes.

In Progress.

Ramblings of a Philosophical Puppen

If you know me in person, don't read this.

Not at all.

Capiche?

No read.

I'm not running for attention, and I really don't want to feel that way, so if....you know me in person, don't read any further than this line.

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I don't know why I'm thinking about this, but I am. I actually listed out as many ways as I could think of while in class, a complete and utter contrast to the the actually quite hilarious story we were being told. I'm turning exactly like people thought I was turning out to be when my clothes slowly started changing and stuff.
I think of Spring Nicht, and it doesn't have an effect. Does that mean I'm no longer obsessed over them in reality? That I'm just holding on for the pure sake of telling people that I do actually have something I care about a lot? Something that does define me? Just a bit? I don't know. I don't know if I want to know. There was a certain form in that counseling paperwork. That if you ever plan to do this, you will talk to somebody. I haven't signed it yet. I don't know if I ever will. I laughed when I passed that form in the packet..as if I would ever. Who ever knew that only a few days later I would be at this. And what would be accomplished if I did it? Would I do the same to others, that a friend nearly did to me? Thank god she didn't.....but....if I don't stop...what will be done to others? Morever, do I care about that? Gah, life is confusing, but at the moment, it's either this, retreat further into my comforting and safe shell, or finally unfold and face the horribilites of the world. No more neutrality.